But God and his Holy Intervention

Holy Intervention for my Birthday

Father, I Thank you for all the wonderful blessing you have given to me .I know that this has been a long journey toward “this” place I am today.  You have encouraged me to come away and be refreshed, renewed, and lavishly loved.  I stepped out in faith and you met me right there.

Last night as I mulled over why did I have to be alone a woman’s conference. Why would I gain new insight into your heart and only have Darrell to share it with at the end of the night. You know the same person who hears almost all of my thoughts anyway. I was so selfish and silly to think why even bother coming.  You know how I have prayed to be a different, more normal person. I have struggled with desiring a friend other than you and Darrell who completely loved those parts of me that since young child have been the things about me no one liked. I mean even it bugged me.

We arrived in St. Louis and I changed to go straight to the arena 30 minutes before time. I walked with a group of 4 generations of family. My mind thought how cool that would have been. I even thought oh well that can never happen, just move on Sonya.

They asked me to sit with them but I could not find a seat for just me. I was good with that and proceeded to look for a seat for just me. You see I came expectant for God to show up and love on me. He created me and knows just what I need.  A volunteer let me sit as her friend in the section reserved for staff of Joyce Myers.

Father, you always lavishly love me and give me exactly what I need even if it is in an arena filled with thousands of women. I knew you had talked with me about being alone in worship and healing with you this weekend. Little did I know or could have even dreamed of you meaning more than just what I thought that meant.  Silly me thought oh, I could not find anyone to come with me so I am alone.

God has the most hysterical sense of humor. The staff only sat there for a few songs and left. I only had one women sitting next to me for a short time. She was a volunteer so she had duties to perform. Every time God came into heal another small part of me she was gone. I sat in an arena  worshiped my Father in heaven and with  2 rows in front of me and no one beside me for 20 chairs over, no one behind me it was a platform to the next level. ALONE with my creator! He so gently healed and revealed the most wonderful worship that healed my soul.

I was not sure what kind of worship would be here, I had never heard Israel Houston. He lavishly brings worship to the throne of God. I felt alone and loved every second of it!!! Joyce had said that when preparing for this audience the spirit revealed it to be a stubborn one. So he gave her the message about the “but God” phrase throughout the bible. I am pleased to say that I have now had another but God moment. Funny how I had been part of them before and not even understood.

The most precious moment of healing came when she said God has a statement for someone and after you hear this you will be healed and able to really just go home. You will have received what he desires for you. Get over your parts of yourself that bug even you. There are things that others have said to get rid of and you agreed thinking no one likes that. Make Peace with God created you even the parts that bug you and others.

Okay, so she talked about many different places in scripture where something was going on but God was the phrase used when he came through for them. You will not be restored doing things our way. Blessings are often mixed with my bondage. Sometimes it is the very bondage that sets you free and you don’t even smell like smoke.

The verse that says the devil has come to steal, kill and destroy; BUT GOD has come to give you life and life more abundantly. We have to fully surrender to God. In Daniel they were loosed while in the fiery furnace. You will not be restored doing your own thing your way.

1 Peter 5:5 Say Goodbye to yourself, so God can love us and we can do what he wants us to do. We need to humble ourselves before God and surrender our whole self. Surrender everything that bugs you and bugs others.  Make peace with yourself. Isaiah 27:5

All I want is what you want God. If you can’t be happy when you don’t have what you want then you will never be happy when you get what you want.

Luke14:31

But God can do whatever we need. When you have a battle to fight you need to look to God, say goodbye to self. God has different standards He chooses what the world would throw away. He chooses what even Christians leaders would not choose.

I am going to continue to be a severely cracked pot. You see the perfect vessel or pot does not allow the light to shine out or through. But God shines through all my cracks in the pot.

I am so thankful and grateful that the word surrender has been part of mine and the Father’s conversations for a few years now. Last night I surrender who everyone thinks I should be, who I thought I should be and came out a severely cracked pot but God restored, renewed, refreshed, regained, and redeemed me back to who He formed in my mother’s womb.

I am not a crier but God moved in such a profoundly deep way at redeeming that which I thought was lost. I could only cry as my heart and soul connected in a way that I remembered from childhood.

I may not fit into anyone’s standards but God’s and I am totally okay with being this alone!

I can’t even imagine what God is going to bless me with today on the day of my birth as His daughter he created for such a time as a BUT God moment yet to be written in this woman’s world.

I love and adore the Father even more, so if you don’t like the woman I come back as, well, I am completely surrendered But God with comfort, encourage and refresh me as I keep going to him in my need.  2cornithians 7:5-6

Life comes out of the death experience when you let BUT GOD deliberately choose and select what the world and even the Christian world thinks if foolish.

I am God’s daughter and fully surrender my all, everything to just stay in the but God moment I had last night.

Expectant for more of you Father today on my earthly birthday! I love being healed and restored and now I wait for a Holy Intervention with a flood of all Alone and fully surrender to my Savior and King

Man does God know how to give the best Birthday party to celebrate LIFE : ) He is my redeemer  in this death experience  called Life and Life more abundantly!

Hungry for more, waiting to be filled up to overflowing,

Sonya