Beautiful History

I am listening to a song by Plum Called Beautiful History. As I sit here and ponder my day it has been full of thoughts, prayers, demands, and well Satan's call back to the yucky history.

But then I read this post again from a lovely lady :

It was so fun seeing you at MOPS, (giving out when you are struggling - you are an amazing woman!) The word = help (ezer) and meet ( to face) Ezer = to surround, protect, secure (strength, power, rescue) . The concept is that we as women and God's design face our husbands with the value of added strength to them... rather than taking from them! By God's design we face them with a YES and blessing of completing their God design of being conquerors! Hope this helps! love you!

This is after I wandered into a live conference for women in church leadership or pastors wives. They were talking about Passion in Leadership. It was very encouraging to know that I am a woman leader. God has called me, put the desire in me, and will encourage, stretch me to become more in love Him so I can lead from my passion. But I am always challenged to be less passionate form those around me.

I know I am intense and overwhelming. I even overwhelm myself sometimes like tonight. I know God is here but I am needing His peace that He made me just the way I am and have always been. I need the freedom to be the creation God designed.

the message that spoke the most challenge to me was the word SHAPE.

• Spiritual Gifts- God gave us each one at the least.
• Heart- What drives you?
• Abilities- Part of the way you serve Him, you may not even recognize it. It is always been part of you.
• *Personalities-You have been Blessed with this.
• Experiences- make us, shape us, God uses them. All the Joys, triumphs, heart felt, painful, brokenhearted ones too.

God takes all of these to SHAPE our ministry. God is good, faithful, and always completes the promises he spoke to you for you. So hold onto those promises that he spoke to you in the still small quite times when you sought Him.

* She used the Winne the Pooh Personality Test It follows:

• Tigers- FUN FUN FUN, Bouncy, Sunny,
  everyone's Best Friend even if they don't know your name ;)
• Rabbit- They get things done, Keep everyone on task, schedule, productive
• Eeyore- Everything is the BIG stuff or a big deal, artistic, creative
• Winne the Pooh- They just go with life, the really don't care where they eat lunch : )

I am going to listen to my Father bring me into His History and let Him restore my heart. I belong to Jesus and he is in charge of my heart being focused in the right direction. I am Beautifully Shaped into His purpose and image day by day moment by moment. Only as I seek Him and come to His throne room to be restored. 

Grace for this moment, Sonya

My Heart

Well the past few months and weeks my days have been varied is the best way to put it.  Some have been great, some terrible and many in between. I have been trying to stay focus and lift my spiritual self out of the not where I want to live mood.

Last night I happen upon a friend’s FB status that said she was going to Live The Dream. I found it live online from Healing Place Church.  I absolutely LOVE them.  

When I was down in BR off and on for a few months, hanging out with Ryan my brother in law. I would go to their church for a break from the hospital and just a time to reflect and gain some soul rest if ya know what I mean. I went down front for prayer and a much anointed lady prayed so specifically for the situation. She asked what hospital we were at and before I got back to the room they someone visiting with Ryan.

I am not what Ryan thought about that but I felt so much love in the weeks and month to follow. Healing Place came to visit and would call and tell me to come outside they had dinner for us. They touched my soul in ways I can't truly express.

 
Back to the recent encounter....I heard J John last night the highlights of what I wrote down are these thoughts:

1. I AM:

Acceptable,  Forgivable, Lovable, Capable

2.  As a believer Jesus in the car with me and most of the time I even let him be the Driver! But the question to ask yourself:  Am I a backseat driver?

3.  Guilt can only be gotten rid of by dissolving it in the blood of Jesus Christ!

Today I heard from Dylnn Rizzo the title she had was “See yourself as God sees you.”

Her message was very Holy Spirit inspired and at times I was just brought to tears and did not get the points written down. But this is what I have….

•    Discouragement will define your life if you let it,
•   Isolation is the enemy to our soul, 
• Choose to do life with others, Let them love you. 
• God’s control is the Key to take the victory, you have to daily choose to give God control.

Then she prayed the most amazing prayer I have ever had prayed over me. I did not get it written down but I am praying she writes it down on her FB page! I know it was for everyone within the sound of her voice but it was rhema word for me!

I will write about the others later I am going to watch Joyce Myers in a few minutes at Live the Dream!
Sonya

Hello Friends!

I have finally decided that I would use this online tool as a place to journal my journey into a wonderfully refined woman of The One True Living God. I call him Father most days.  This is nothing more than a way for me to write out my place in this world. I hope that you can see that we are each on a journey.
I want whoever stumbles across this to know that:

I am a woman who knows with out doubt:

• who created me
• who loves me
• who pursues me
• who rescues me
• who fights for me

Their names are God, Jesus Christ the son of the living God, and Holy Spirit or Comforter!
I chose to not hide anymore from them. I want to be refined into a wonderful woman of faith, strength, and trust.  I am not perfect or will I be this side of eternity. I can only hope and pray that I give those things to God who can heal this broken human and bring out of the fire a Beautiful Refined Woman the He really created.

You see we each have been placed here on earth that is fallen and not Eden anymore. We each have sin that separates us from The Father. The upside of this is he wants to redeem us and call us into the Life He always had planed. He saves us from our sinful selves. I don’t know about you but that excites me!

I will just blog what ever I am thinking about on most days. It may be a ramble to most but for me it is just called thoughts of the heart. It is really just for me not for any particular person. You see I am practicing my writing skills. I want to learn how to put my thoughts on paper and make a completely Life Changing message to eventually share with others around the world or maybe just the block I don’t really know I am just getting started.

Always Serving the Father,
Sonya